No, I'm actually referring to the event itself. Which is a rare topic for this blog, or with myself for that matter.
Romance.
So here's my story of my love life. Beginning in secondary school, I felt a bit weird. I wanted to spend more time with girls. But seeing as I went to an all-boys school, that was going to be a problem. And in Handsworth no less. Then at 16, I met a girl. She was nice. We went out. Once. Realised it was a huge mistake seeing as we had nothing in common, and never talked again.
...Erm...That's it.
At 16, I didn't think it was such a problem. Find a girl you like, ask her out, then if it works out, great! But now? Bah.
I think one phrase sticks out to me most. "Boyfriend material". Oh great, I didn't realise that entering a relationship now came with a specification. Wasn't having male genitalia enough?
"Boyfriend material"...even now, I still repeat it over to myself. What is it? Isn't it the kind of thing that varies from person to person? For example, "Not being a dick" I thought would be a good starter. (Although to be honest, I've probably already failed at this point.)
Maybe it's something to do with being romantic. And for which I assume this means updating your Facebook status every few seconds saying, "I loooovvveee (name) sooooo much" Actually, that makes me sound like a complete and utter dickhead (please refer to previous paragraph). I'm not one to stamp on genuine romance on other couples, good for them and all that. I suppose I'm just bitter. Well, I suppose anyone who's longest relationship lasted a few hours normally would be.
But then, a few days ago, I came across a phrase. Whilst talking and generally bemoaning the male race, my friend said "Being single doesn't mean that I'm available".
Hmm. I thought aloud in the middle of the road, later that day, stroking my chin whilst the drivers drove past and shouted angrily.
So let's say I'm lucky enough to be in a relationship now. That's my view now. But what about the girl? Apparently, we're more trouble than we are worth. "No boyfriend = no problems" my friend said again. Seriously?
As you can see and as I mentioned previously, romantically, I am pretty clueless. Love and romance was and has never been straight forward, despite what I thought when I was 16. Everything I thought then is now wrong. People might be single for a reason, they've just had enough of being treated badly by their previous boyfriend. Just because you like someone doesn't meant it can go somewhere. There will be things you have to pick up on, and you have to be alert about it and read the signals. Otherwise you may as well stick a huge "MASSIVE DULLARD" sticker on their forehead.
It's a complicated thing, romance. But going through those things...isn't it part of life? After all, that overused phrase, "It's better than to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all." does fit in well at this part of the rant/moan/howling sadness. I'm sure at some moment in my life, I will experience this at some point.
Even if it is to discover that I'm not boyfriend material at all.
1 comment:
That's pretty sweet.. but this is coming from an equally (if not more) embittered male who currently resides in Nottingham and hasn't trimmed his beard in over a week.
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