The following is what my brain thinks immediately after this announcement.
"OK, let's have a look. Oh, OK. That question looks do-able. Er...not so much that one. OK. Uh-huh. All right. Sweet. I reckon there's about 4 good questions there. All right. Sweet. Now, what was I thinking about."
Then I proceed to put down the question paper, stare into space and the examiners look at me with a expression of bemusement and disbelief.
My name is Khoi Nguyen, and I think I might have ADHD.
It's something that I've noticed recently whenever I sit down for my exam. Maybe it's something to do with the words 'exam conditions'. As soon as I hear those words, my brain seems to think that this gives it the right to suddenly float off towards a section of my brain that deals with creativity and deep, philosophical thoughts.
It's something that I've noticed recently whenever I sit down for my exam. Maybe it's something to do with the words 'exam conditions'. As soon as I hear those words, my brain seems to think that this gives it the right to suddenly float off towards a section of my brain that deals with creativity and deep, philosophical thoughts.
An area that is rarely visited, and normally crowded out by other sections. Namely 'social awkwardness' and 'internet jokes'.
My brain essentially became a sketch show. A number of unrelated and unconnected thoughts flew across my field of revision, replacing the dreary, grey ECC building, which by the way I am entirely convinced I have left a sizeable part of my soul behind during my years there. The range of thoughts was extreme and bizarre; fitting to my personality.
I saw myself dancing and prancing around the stage in a Titanic musical months ago.
I saw Paul Merson go nuts as Sergio Aguero scored the goal that won the Premier League title mere days ago.
I replayed the music video to 'Show Me The Light' by Mystery Jets over and over again.
Although, one definitely stuck in my mind, mainly because of its relation to the exam scenario I was in the middle of.
Before I entered university, I was quite a good student. I had near 100% attendance, I got decent grades and generally had a good time at college. Then, I remember coming across the first few memes regarding university (yes, I knew about them before they became cool, ha ha ha. Whatever) and the fact that students were happy about passing with 40%.
I remember being shocked and disappointed by this. I remember thinking to myself there was no way on earth I'd want to be that student. Then I remembered my current day predicament, and the whole thing about how people change when they get older and shit like that.
How did this come about?
I have several theories, but the one that plainly stands out is the fact that I've had enough of education. Nearly two decades of education is fine, thank you very much.
Sure, I'll want my degree to go with it before I leave, but given the fact that these years I've had at uni have been the most creative and eye-opening ones I've had in my life, I'm kinda desperate to get out there and stretch my wings. I've always had the safety net of education behind me, and I think in a way because of that, it has definitely restricted me in all sorts of ways. There's been nothing to push me to really chase what I want to do. I've never had any sort of solid, bona-fide ambition to lead me through life.
Oh God, did I really just giggle at bona-fide? Come on, Khoi. Moving on.
The horror stories I've heard about life after graduation sure are indeed sobering, but I'm willing to tackle that with all I've got. Everything I've done at univeristy, all the confidence I've accrued in that time, and basically have a ball with the post-graduation life.
I saw myself dancing and prancing around the stage in a Titanic musical months ago.
I saw Paul Merson go nuts as Sergio Aguero scored the goal that won the Premier League title mere days ago.
I replayed the music video to 'Show Me The Light' by Mystery Jets over and over again.
Although, one definitely stuck in my mind, mainly because of its relation to the exam scenario I was in the middle of.
Before I entered university, I was quite a good student. I had near 100% attendance, I got decent grades and generally had a good time at college. Then, I remember coming across the first few memes regarding university (yes, I knew about them before they became cool, ha ha ha. Whatever) and the fact that students were happy about passing with 40%.
I remember being shocked and disappointed by this. I remember thinking to myself there was no way on earth I'd want to be that student. Then I remembered my current day predicament, and the whole thing about how people change when they get older and shit like that.
How did this come about?
I have several theories, but the one that plainly stands out is the fact that I've had enough of education. Nearly two decades of education is fine, thank you very much.
Sure, I'll want my degree to go with it before I leave, but given the fact that these years I've had at uni have been the most creative and eye-opening ones I've had in my life, I'm kinda desperate to get out there and stretch my wings. I've always had the safety net of education behind me, and I think in a way because of that, it has definitely restricted me in all sorts of ways. There's been nothing to push me to really chase what I want to do. I've never had any sort of solid, bona-fide ambition to lead me through life.
Oh God, did I really just giggle at bona-fide? Come on, Khoi. Moving on.
The horror stories I've heard about life after graduation sure are indeed sobering, but I'm willing to tackle that with all I've got. Everything I've done at univeristy, all the confidence I've accrued in that time, and basically have a ball with the post-graduation life.
Basically in other words. You goin' down, graduation. Bam.
On a side note, here's the link to my Soundcloud.
http://soundcloud.com/khoiatlantis
It contains the first few demos and jam sessions of Atlantis, a band I've set up with a good buddy of mine. It'd be awesome if you guys checked it out and gave some feedback, just so I know what you think sounds good and what sounds shit. Awesome, yo.
On a side note, here's the link to my Soundcloud.
http://soundcloud.com/khoiatlantis
It contains the first few demos and jam sessions of Atlantis, a band I've set up with a good buddy of mine. It'd be awesome if you guys checked it out and gave some feedback, just so I know what you think sounds good and what sounds shit. Awesome, yo.
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Carpe Diem, Mr Ngygygygy, Carpe Diem.
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